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Jaina ([personal profile] effervescible) wrote2007-06-20 11:08 am
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Fuck this noise

Someday I'll learn to art of making weekend update posts not halfway through the week. It was a fun weekend--I got to hang out and have dinner/unnecessary but yummy ice cream with [livejournal.com profile] lovediamond on Friday. Much Bleach chatter ensued. On Saturday morning, I drove down to join [livejournal.com profile] irenak for an afternoon at Wizard World Philadelphia. It was pretty fun--not really much panel stuff going on while we there, so we mostly just wandered around the dealers room, browsing for purchases and gaping at exhibitors' booths. (The Witchblade anime is JUST short of being actual hentai. Ick.) I picked up a couple of Alias trade paperbacks for $10 each, which made me happy. Also bought some licorice and fudge at Reading Market, most of which [livejournal.com profile] irenak's dog ate later, along with the plastic packaging. I didn't actually mind much, as I really don't need to be consuming a hunk of fudge. At home, we watched 6 eps of Dr. Who (I'm hooked) and talked all things fandom and fic. I always walk away from our weekends hanging out feeling really inspired to write, but there's never enough time. Then on Monday, I got to have lunch with the always delightful [livejournal.com profile] roserevolution, who was buying spiffy new outfits at Palisades for her spiffy new job.

So the weekend was good--the subject line of this post refers to the insomnia I had again last night. How long can this go on?! I was exhausted when I went to sleep at 1:30, slept for about an hour, then popped awake. Got a bit of fitful sleep, was awake again around 4 and got up to say good night/good morning to [livejournal.com profile] lovediamond on AIM at 5 AM. So the only really uninterrupted sleep i got was 5-8ish. I feel like a zombie today.

I'm going to cut out caffeine in the form of my beloved Lime Diet Cooke entirely in the evenings, but I don't even know if that's what's doing it. I've been having minor anxiety attacks about my breathing--I don't remember if I mentioned it here, but I'd gone to the doc for persistent chest tightness that could potentially be adult-onset asthma, could potentially be something else. Ironically, the tightness has gone drastically down since I got back from [livejournal.com profile] dialogue's wedding, so it's not like I even have anything to worry about. But I keep feeling like I need to take deep breaths--sort of like when yawning, except it's not yawning--until I stop thinking about it, then it pretty much goes away. So I'm thinking it has to be in my head. But knowing that doesn't DO anything about it. SIGH. In any case, I'm thinking it's a good idea to go to the walk-in x-ray place to get the chest scan the doctor referred me for just in case. It'll check out the asthma thing and if everything checks out all right on the scan, maybe I'll stop going mental. Ugh.

In happier news, I finally FINALLY have a title for Dead Ichigo, my big mclargehuge Bleach fic I've been working on for like a year. Should be able to start posting it in a couple weeks if [livejournal.com profile] hecatehatesthat keeps up with the awesome beta. YAYS. I am not awesome at titles on my best day, but this one took extra gnashing of teeth and rending of garments. [livejournal.com profile] hallowd was not wrong to refer to the brainstorming period as the "Iliad of Woe." [livejournal.com profile] utenatai, [livejournal.com profile] tenebris and [livejournal.com profile] hecatehatesthat all had a hand in molding the title. Lo, they rule.

Next weekend is Anime Expo, which kicks off my month of ASHALKJGDSADKHGJAGDSAD. [livejournal.com profile] sarcasticval and [livejournal.com profile] utenatai, I know how to hook up with you there, but [livejournal.com profile] banfennid, we need to sort stuff out. I'm not leaving California again without getting to hang with you. :) I don't know what our work schedule is for the con but we should know before we leave. I hope this time we don't have an emergency landing in fucking Denver again.

[identity profile] wreakerofhavoc.livejournal.com 2007-06-20 05:26 pm (UTC)(link)
You know, you don't have to give up the evening Lime Diet Coke (sooooo good)...just put rum or bourbon into it. It's all about balancing your uppers and your downers.

You're going to be in Baltimore for Otakon, right?

[identity profile] hallowd.livejournal.com 2007-06-20 09:30 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a term I snitched from That Nice Mr. Pynchon, so I can't take credit. X)

And yikes! You need to look after yourself, you hear? *motherhens*


[identity profile] emiweebee.livejournal.com 2007-06-20 10:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Re: anxiety. If you absolutely, positively cannot manage to soothe yourself with relaxation techniques, and they're affecting a significant portion of your day/week/life...go back to your doctor and mention it. If it really, positively, absolutely is nothing physically wrong with you, you might get some Paxil or something to get you mentally over the anxiety hump.

Of course, I'm a firm believer in "If they don't find it, you're not looking hard enough." Get a second opinion if you have to. Not that I think there's something horrible and rare and serious wrong with you, but I have family that, if not for persistent pushing, would never have gotten diagnoses.

You know, it could also be some bizarre form of allergies. I had allergies so bad once they manifested as a chest cold, and I never got allergies, so I thought I was seriously ill.

[identity profile] raynos.livejournal.com 2007-06-21 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
I dunno how zombie you feel and if you are sleeping now, but I'm LONELY on GoogleDocs. Waah D=

And man, you lucky social bunny. I wish I could meet as many people as you do. ^^

[identity profile] lady-ganesh.livejournal.com 2007-06-22 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
Benadryl is a non-addictive sleep aid as well as a decongestant, if you haven't tried that.

I know when I was starting to get depressed I had the same 'can't sleep can't breathe' feeling at night, for what that's worth.

Iliad of woe is AWESOME.