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effervescible) wrote2001-10-16 11:03 pm
effervescible) wrote2001-10-16 11:03 pm
I'm coming out, I want the world to know, got to let it show
So. Apparently, I am gay. Who knew? I am so pleased that someone was kind enough to enlighten me. That must be why rarely date. It doesn't explain the very hetero Spike dream I had the other night, but no matter. Val, wanna take our relationship to the next step? Jim, you're welcome to join us if you're okay with a threesome.
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SALAD TOSSING! EGG MCMUFFINS!!
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But egg Mcmuffins?
Egg McMuffins?
Maybe Jim should have told you what I REALLY said.
I'm sorry for all the shit I've caused, but I did it because some of you were calling me an ex-freak and a psycho.. because i CRIED?! C'mon.. that's when the harrassing started. I wanted to "live up to the reputation" in a way. All that is finished though. I'm sure he's probably said other stuff about me that are half-truths. Jim tends to do that a lot, don't you Jim?
I'm currently writing a journal with apologies, but I don't ever intend on you guys reading it. It's just for me. Anyways, let's all just move on with our lives. I've apologized, and now I'd like to receive the same (for the name calling and whatever else you've said that I don't know about) But if you don't genuinely mean it, I'd rather you not say anything. (This goes out to Jaina, Val, Alice, and Jim.. and whoever else has said anything about me)
*counts on his fingers*
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Actually, no. We were calling you those things because you were STALKING US.
Or did you not send me emails pretending to be a student at my school, IM me using your friend's logon, IM Jim under a different name telling him what a slut I was and how I was going to leave him all while impersonating a BGer, insult me whenever you got the chance, bother my friends in their journals, and then "warn" Jim that you would "make me pay" if he did anything that midly upset you?
Gee, why would we be a bit miffed about any of that? I simply can't imagaine why anyone would think you were being the tinest bit psychotic.
Cough, sarcasm, cough.
You want us all to move on with our lives? Halle-freaking-luia! That's all we've wanted from the start. The only thing that prevented anyone from doing that was you and the constant stunts you pulled.
Let me spell it out for you. If you don't want people to call you a psycho and the like....THEN DON'T BLOODY ACT LIKE ONE! If you leave us alone, then we will leave you alone. Simple as that.
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Re: Maybe Jim should have told you what I REALLY said.
(Anonymous) 2001-10-17 09:15 am (UTC)(link)Did I ever say anything to YOU like that? No. And I did NOT go under a friends nickname. I know what you are referring to, and I was online the same time as he was.
As far as the email, it wasn't me. *shrugs* That's all I can say. I have admitted to the other stuff, and that's the best I can do. I did IM Jim, yes. But he *knew* it was me.. so why relay the messages to you? He didn't HAVE to. The things I say to him on the phone are between me and him (or so I thought). I said them out of jealousy, and nothing else. If you had ever loved someone like I used to love him, you'd understand just how much it hurts to see your first love moving on to someone else. Yeah, I have a boyfriend, but it's just different when the other person moves on. Maybe you've been through this too, I don't know.
What hurt most of all is that he criticized me for going out with someone 3 years younger than myself.. and now he's doing what he thought was disgusting just one year ago. There's a lot of stuff we don't know about each other ( you and me) I'm apologizing for what I have said.. there was no reason to say it. I'm SORRY, alright?
Granted, at times I was suffering from psychosis.. but that is not my personality under normal circumstances. Jim would agree with me on that. During our five years together, not once did I act that way. I've never felt this way before, and I hate it. I'm not trying to get sympathy; I'm just trying to explain why I did what I did - even if it was wrong.
And as far as me leaving you guys alone, I haven't been doing anything as of late. I started my journal a few days ago - even before Jim said anything about me apologizing. That in itself should show that I'm being sincere about this. When I get pissed off/jealous/etc I say things that I don't mean.
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(Anonymous) 2001-10-17 09:15 am (UTC)(link)Jim and I already had a discussion about this earlier this morning. I've decided he keeps relaying things to all of you because he wants to piss me off so badly that I won't ever speak to him again. So that's what I'm doing. He's all yours. Have fun :)
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(Anonymous) 2001-10-17 10:41 am (UTC)(link)God Bless,
Marnie
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*snort*
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Re: Maybe Jim should have told you what I REALLY said.
Hon, do you not realize that we traced the ISPs of the anonymous e-mail and LJ commenter immediately?
While I'm thinking of it
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(Anonymous) 2001-10-17 12:47 pm (UTC)(link)And it doesnt matter to me what your sexuality is, honestly. I just know that.. ugh.. I'd rather talk about it privately if you must know why I said what I said to him. I realize you'll probably show the emails to val, and that's fine.. I just dont want it out "in the open" if that's alright with you.
Gotta go take Patrick to work. . .
Truce?
(Anonymous) 2001-10-17 01:18 pm (UTC)(link)