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effervescible) wrote2001-09-27 11:40 am
effervescible) wrote2001-09-27 11:40 am
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So Jaina is not dead
As you've seen from the various rinky-drink tests & quizzes posts. But gosh, I've gotten out of the habit of writing about me and my life daily. Blame it on band camp or on my lazy qualities, but here I am, and I'm making an effort to get back in the groove.
Something I've been wavering on for the past couple of months--and no, this isn't why you haven't been seeing me, I've just really been quiet--is whether to pull a Minki and friendslock my entire journal. It's tough. To do so would take away what I think is one of the coolest aspects of livejournal. I really like reading some journals, some being those of people I've never met. I've made some friends this way. I've also found just plain interesting reading. While friendslocking my journal wouldn't keep me from continuing to explore the unknown territory of lj, it would keep others from diong the same to me. I'll be honest, I really like the feeling I get when I see that someone new has added me to their friends list first. It's nice to be liked. Also, oddly, I don't mind complete strangers reading the bulk of my journal. Anything that I'm iffy about is already locked. But lately, I've been wondering how much "me" is coming through to my journal and how much is "me aware that I am being watched". There are also certain people I don't want reading this journal. (Char, does your family still have the link to yours or was that someone else? *grin*) Sometimes I friendslock anyways if I'm bitching about someone who doesn't even know about lj, just in case. So it's weird--I'd almost rather have a button to to press that decides who not to let read my journal. But unfortunately, there's no option for "only people who already know me well or complete strangers can see". Strangers don't really bother me most of the time because what the hell do I care what they think of me? I don't know them. And they can become friends. So every time I almost friendslock everything, I think about that and about the fact that my lovelies on diaryland wouldn't be able to read it and I would never tell them to get a lj account just for me. So here I am still. I hope this doesn't make anyone feel weird--not directed at anyone specific, truly. Just a growing feeling I've been having. The conclusion I keep reaching is to just leave things as they are and use the friends-only key more liberally, which I'll probably start doing if I keep up the regular schedule.
But who knows.
There's more to talk about, but right now I feel like pondering things.
Something I've been wavering on for the past couple of months--and no, this isn't why you haven't been seeing me, I've just really been quiet--is whether to pull a Minki and friendslock my entire journal. It's tough. To do so would take away what I think is one of the coolest aspects of livejournal. I really like reading some journals, some being those of people I've never met. I've made some friends this way. I've also found just plain interesting reading. While friendslocking my journal wouldn't keep me from continuing to explore the unknown territory of lj, it would keep others from diong the same to me. I'll be honest, I really like the feeling I get when I see that someone new has added me to their friends list first. It's nice to be liked. Also, oddly, I don't mind complete strangers reading the bulk of my journal. Anything that I'm iffy about is already locked. But lately, I've been wondering how much "me" is coming through to my journal and how much is "me aware that I am being watched". There are also certain people I don't want reading this journal. (Char, does your family still have the link to yours or was that someone else? *grin*) Sometimes I friendslock anyways if I'm bitching about someone who doesn't even know about lj, just in case. So it's weird--I'd almost rather have a button to to press that decides who not to let read my journal. But unfortunately, there's no option for "only people who already know me well or complete strangers can see". Strangers don't really bother me most of the time because what the hell do I care what they think of me? I don't know them. And they can become friends. So every time I almost friendslock everything, I think about that and about the fact that my lovelies on diaryland wouldn't be able to read it and I would never tell them to get a lj account just for me. So here I am still. I hope this doesn't make anyone feel weird--not directed at anyone specific, truly. Just a growing feeling I've been having. The conclusion I keep reaching is to just leave things as they are and use the friends-only key more liberally, which I'll probably start doing if I keep up the regular schedule.
But who knows.
There's more to talk about, but right now I feel like pondering things.