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effervescible) wrote2000-12-15 12:41 pm
effervescible) wrote2000-12-15 12:41 pm
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Really Deep Thoughts ...okay maybe not.
Hmmm. I feel like posting now, but what do I have to say? Not terribly much, just preparing for exams which consists mainly of shamelessly procrastinating on my Shakespeare paper. But Simon read my thesis intro and we talked about it and he says it's good (and he said I'm a really good writer! ::happyhappy::) so I'm feeling less stressed about it.
This morning I was listening to Patty Griffin's "Mary" and wow, I love that song. It's beautiful and made me feel somewhat melancholy. I got to thinking, is that really a bad thing? I didn't feel sad, really, I just...hmm. I don't really know. Maybe it felt fine because I chose to allow that feeling, I didn't just slip into a hangdog mood. It was kind of nice.
Had some ficcy thoughts last night. A short something I might just write soon. But then, I'm deluding myself--I really need to get my papers and finals studying done before I can write more. Of course, after Wednesday, I hope to spend a lot of vaca time writing. I really need to finish the chapter some friends are waiting on, and I want to start the series I've been planning for a while.
Yesterday I read some of the more "epic" Sailor Moon fic (Ken Wolfe's "Secrets" fyi (Non-SM livejournalers, don't laugh. It ain't just a kiddie show by any stretch)) and I got to thinking about the vast difference between stories like those (Tim Nolan's entire body of work is another good example) and the cutie stuff like all the Usagi/Mamoru romance fics. The epic type stuff just seems to reach out and touch a different world, like a level beyond. Does that make the sweeter stuff less valid? Are the authors not stretching to their full capabilities? Am I limiting myself as a writer by writing romantic, sexy, funny stuff? I don't think so, because it's fun, and it's the type of stuff I think of, but I can't help but feel dwarfed after reading the other stuff. I suppose it doesn't help that the part of the community I dabble in has a lot of young, immature people who just want to write anything for the sake of having written fic instead of writing because they need to and needing it to be the best it can be. Maybe it's like the difference between professional and amateurs...and I shouldn't really angst over it because hell, it's what I do for fun. I do have other stuff to do for a living. I think my general angst over my major and my future is probably carrying over here. Hmm.
Bleh, I'm probably going to look at this journal later and be really embarrassed for blathering about nothing at all...but like mommyhugs, I suppose we all need it sometimes. Ja ne.
This morning I was listening to Patty Griffin's "Mary" and wow, I love that song. It's beautiful and made me feel somewhat melancholy. I got to thinking, is that really a bad thing? I didn't feel sad, really, I just...hmm. I don't really know. Maybe it felt fine because I chose to allow that feeling, I didn't just slip into a hangdog mood. It was kind of nice.
Had some ficcy thoughts last night. A short something I might just write soon. But then, I'm deluding myself--I really need to get my papers and finals studying done before I can write more. Of course, after Wednesday, I hope to spend a lot of vaca time writing. I really need to finish the chapter some friends are waiting on, and I want to start the series I've been planning for a while.
Yesterday I read some of the more "epic" Sailor Moon fic (Ken Wolfe's "Secrets" fyi (Non-SM livejournalers, don't laugh. It ain't just a kiddie show by any stretch)) and I got to thinking about the vast difference between stories like those (Tim Nolan's entire body of work is another good example) and the cutie stuff like all the Usagi/Mamoru romance fics. The epic type stuff just seems to reach out and touch a different world, like a level beyond. Does that make the sweeter stuff less valid? Are the authors not stretching to their full capabilities? Am I limiting myself as a writer by writing romantic, sexy, funny stuff? I don't think so, because it's fun, and it's the type of stuff I think of, but I can't help but feel dwarfed after reading the other stuff. I suppose it doesn't help that the part of the community I dabble in has a lot of young, immature people who just want to write anything for the sake of having written fic instead of writing because they need to and needing it to be the best it can be. Maybe it's like the difference between professional and amateurs...and I shouldn't really angst over it because hell, it's what I do for fun. I do have other stuff to do for a living. I think my general angst over my major and my future is probably carrying over here. Hmm.
Bleh, I'm probably going to look at this journal later and be really embarrassed for blathering about nothing at all...but like mommyhugs, I suppose we all need it sometimes. Ja ne.