effervescible: (zuko - rise with the sun)
Because I'm paranoid, I'll preface this with a spoiler non-warning: No plot details about KH: 358/2 Days follow, but general comment on the game's premise as well as vague discussion of Kingdom Hearts II does. If you've played the prologue of KH II, you're good.

Oh, Kingdom Hearts. How do you do this to me? You're a beautifully artistic, stylish set of games, but it's not like you're insanely deep; you have bizarrely convoluted plots that are done no favors by your attempts to frame babbling about memories and hearts and blahdiblah into a pseudo-scientific context; and, let's face it, your light side/dark side schtick is wading in the shallow end of the symbolism swimming pool.

And yet.

I still found myself getting kind of weepy during my lunch hour yesterday, when I beat Kingdom Hearts: 358/2 Days. (Thank goodness for cubicle walls.) I didn't actually cry, but that's because I'm fairly tear-deficient when it comes to media entertainment; I have to work up to a good cry, and video game endings aren't usually long enough. Anyway. As Days is the tale of Roxas between Chain of Memories and Kingdom Hearts II, and one of the three main characters is a girl who does not appear in KH II, it should surprise no one that it doesn't have a 100% happy ending. Actually, the game as a whole is fairly melancholy. I loved it like candy.

And the thing is, it makes KH II make so much more sense! I was talking to [livejournal.com profile] kawree about it, and she likes the whole out-of-order thing, but I don't so much. I wish I did. But frankly, I don't know why they didn't just release this one before KH II. (That's a lie. I know two reasons for it: 1) They hadn't figured out all the deets of what Roxas actually did during the year and 2) $$$. I will say that they did an impressive job of matching up the context of Days with the flashback cutscenes from KH II.)

See, the first time I tried KH II, I hadn't played Chain of Memories. As you can imagine, it was a total clusterfuck. Who the fuck was this Roxas guy? Yes, by the time I finished the prologue, I understood the Roxas-Sora connection, but I was pretty unmoved. Later on, I played KH II after playing some of CoM and reading all the info on the rest, and it went better—I understood what was going on—but I still didn't really care. See, it's one thing for a character to be confronted by a mysterious past that he doesn't remember. That's an interesting setup. But when we don't know the mysterious past, either?

Sure, I felt a smidgen of sympathy as his world crumbled around him, but it wasn't enough. First impressions count, and the one for Roxas said he was a normal kid with a funky past; it was hard for me to buy that he was all funky past. Clearly he and Axel had had this epic bromance, and it was very sad that Axel's friend didn't remember him at all, but we knew shit-all about it. We were told instead of shown, and I couldn't quite feel it—I could only sort of imagine I did. (If I wanted to get really pretentiously meta, I'd say this was on purpose to parallel the inability of a Nobody to truly feel, and only remember what it was like to feel. But it wasn't and I don't so I won't.)

Now? Shit yes, now I feel for Roxas. I don't actually care that much about Sora now, especially since Roxas got the raw deal here; he was "incomplete" this and "without a heart" that without Sora, but Sora seemed to be doing okay without him, and Roxas is the one who loses his identity. (I, uh. May produce fic to rectify this in my mind.) I actually get what his purpose in the series is, and why I should give a damn about him and his friendships. It's really interesting to me that the fandom took such a shine to Axel and Roxas and their relationship without knowing anything about what it was actually like. What, did they just invent their own stuff to fill in the gaps? (It's fandom. Of course they did.) I started playing KH II again last night, and it is sadder. It reminds me of how I felt watching the original Star Wars trilogy right after finishing the prequels, except Days is good.

This very wordy lj entry aside, I figure I'm screwed when it comes to fic, since I have no desire to read about Axel and Roxas boning each other. If anyone has gen/friendship recs, though, I'd love 'em, along with anything about Riku/and King Mickey. (Now there's another bromance I dig. Riku had a rough year, didn't he? Although he did get to be Badass McHottie von Mysteriousdude, which is not such a bad gig.)

I think my next DS game will be something more realistic, though. Like a courtroom drama about a gay prosecutor. Yeah, that's the stuff.
effervescible: (dark rukia)
It's tough to accept when you're in a situation where the best you can do is nothing at all--that any action on your part would only be enabling fucked-up behavior. You keep thinking "no, there has to be something different I can do, I just have to keep looking and figure it out" because years of shonen anime and Galaxy Quest have taught us NEVER GIVE UP, NEVER SURRENDER because there's always a solution. And that's not always true. And it sucks.


At least we still have polar bears who hug dogs!

Hit me!

Nov. 29th, 2006 02:42 pm
effervescible: (knives - iplant)
Ganked from [livejournal.com profile] sintari:

01. Post this on your journal.
02. Your friends will comment with some of your fandoms or some general topic about fandom (EX: just the fandom or things like "Prince of Tennis ships").
03. In a new post (or in comments) respond back with one or two of your unpopular opinions for that fandom or topic.
effervescible: (mad world)
Not sure why I'm writing this. I'm not trying to be insensitive, but on a personal level, I was not overly affected by 9/11/01. I didn't lose anyone. And I don't feel especially affected on the anniversary, at least, not moreso than anyone else. But after reading some of the coverage of the anniversary, and reading some people's stories in the blogosphere, I wanted to write it down--I think as much to have it written out before I forget any more of the details.I was 19. )

In the end, my life was only changed to the extent that Americans' in general were. In the last five years, I've heard some people talk about how people need to get over 9/11, that worse things happen in other countries all the time--genocide, for one. And the latter might be true. But that doesn't change the impact that it did have on a lot of people, and it's not wrong to sit back and reflect on it. It's only wrong if people take what they learned from it and do nothing.
effervescible: (scarily cheerful)
Andrew and Darien )

Brock Sampson )
effervescible: (like a virgin)
[livejournal.com profile] sarajayechan requested my thoughts on Utena/Anthy so here I go. OMFG SPOILERS LIKE A SPOILING THING )
effervescible: (Default)
I was reading an old message board thread about this subject and thinking how these fears seem so funny now but were so damn creepy back then (and are still a little creepy, admit it). These were mine:

  • "Broken" toilets. You know, those industrial ones where the toilet seat didn't meet in the middle front, usually black, often seen in schools and older rest stops and such? Yeah, those. I was terrified of them and would refuse to sit on them to pee. I'd rather have held it in, and you who know me in real life know that that isn't something I like to do ever.

    I'm not sure exactly what I thought they would do to me, but I know exactly how it started: years later, Mom told me that when I was very small, we went to some rest stop bathroom that had lots of toilets and was very loud with all the flushing. It started after that. I eventually got over it by sitting sideways on the seat until I couldn't be arsed to bother anymore. Mom suggested I "practice" at home (on the good toilet) so I'd be ready. I think this was when I first went to school, actually. She must've not wanted me to be a screaming freak.

  • Volcanoes. No, I wasn't scared of them popping up under me (in Ohio?). I was scared of going on vacation to Hawaii, because apparently volcanoes erupted there all the time. Note: we never vacationoed in Hawaii, nor did we have plans to do so.

  • Kidnappers/the ominous "they." I was scared someone would come take me away in the middle of the night, so I slept with lots of stuffed animals and dolls, the reasoning being that if I sat very still they would think I was a doll, too, and not bother. I also practiced lying very still so robbers (not to be confused with kidnappers) would see that I was deeply asleep and not do anything bad to me as they ransacked the house.

It's all very amusing now but I can still kind of feel the chills going up and down my back at the memory of how it felt then. So how about you guys? What were you afraid of?
effervescible: (como estan)
Text goes here! )
effervescible: (meryl - a woman who's sure)
Obligatory work prattle: I love my job. I love my job. I love my job. I wish it paid a little bit better but: I love my job.

I was thinking about various characters and their interpretations in fanworks the other day while driving (I have a LOT of time to think while driving). I always think of things to post about while I drive but I never do. I need to change that, so: some Meryl reflection, because my fickle fannish brain has jumped back to Trigun this week. I think Bleach is next, but anyway, some thoughts on Meryl. )
effervescible: (fat fuu)
Am I the only one who thinks the term "fanbrat" (and its derivatives) is an assy word to use? No doubt there are times it's an accurate descriptor, but when I read it in a post, I think of how silly a fanficcer I was back in the day--how I wanted to write goodfic but I had areas of stoopid that I just didn't see. Sure, I sucked, but not on purpose. And I think how many authors must still be like that. I'm not saying that mocking badfic is a bad thing; after all, it's poking the work, not the person who produced it. "Fanbrat" seems a much more personal insult.

Writers of sues and really awful fic might be more likely to be truly bratty, especially when the quality of their work is pointed out, but I don't believe that badfic alone justifies this term, even if it's really awful badfic. It bothers me. Makes me think of fannish entitlement, like readers are being insulted by the very existence of badfic, so they insult back. I don't expect to change anyone's behavior, but I don't think that's right.
effervescible: (Default)
Cuz, um...I live in Middlesex County and Union is right nearby...Oh christ, between this and [livejournal.com profile] fadingembers declaring me a true Jerseyite after my "malls should never close" comment, I fit in now, right? As soon as I get my Slea-Z Pass I'm good to go!

So, yeah. Am in Jersey now, as I have mentioned before. Apparently in one of the more expensive counties, according to Insurance Man. ANd can I just say THANK THE LORD that the car not being in my name yet means it can stay insured in Ohio and not here? Because damn, y'all. I knew it was expensive out here but $2,000 a year? In the good insurance tier? Damn. But I do have cheapx0r renter's insurance, so rob me at your own peril.

It's interesting to be out here. I was freaking out on a daily basis right before the move, but in general I feel good out here. I do feel antsy about Jobby McJobberton calling me, even though I am certain they will and I honestly believe the odds are good that after working there for a week, I'll get picked up for a season (to use the tv parlance), so I'm probably going to the temp place tomorrow to see if I can get nay short term stuff.

Hear that, Jobby? That's your cue to call me right before I go so I don't have to bother, plz.

The roads are fucking insane up here. The sheer density of people all packed in makes getting anywhere kind of hard, plus the roads are laid out as if planned on a drunken dare. On the bright side, I'm learning my way around and kind of know how to get to [livejournal.com profile] arafel's place. It does fucking rock having two of my formerly long-distance best friends within driving (or yelling) distance.

It doesn't feel like home. It feels like it's just something I'm doing somewhere else for a while. But a lot of life is like that, I think.
effervescible: (touga so pretty in the movie!)
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Questions I've collected thus far )
effervescible: (made me think [by someone else])
Prompted to post by this wank but it's something I've thought about before. When anti-fanfic people say that ficcers steal characters and situations, I keep wondering. What have they lost?

I'm not sure whether this is a discussion question or just me thinking out loud.
effervescible: (flip you off)
This is the weekend of Catching up on Memes, I already know it. I'm starting with a question I was asked the last time one of those interview memes went `round. (Heh, I have to do my answers for this round, too.) I think it was [livejournal.com profile] reizero who asked me to write down my thoughts on the state of the Trigun fandom, but if it was someone else, don't kill me, mystery friend. I wanted a whole post to do a more thought-out post, so here it is.

Cut for those of you who just don't care )
effervescible: (anthy utena shadow [drazzi])
Arafel's VashxMeryl essay for [livejournal.com profile] ship_manifesto.  It rocks!  Go read and comment!

My VashxMeryl FST.  It rocks!  Go read and download and comment!

Let's talk about masturbation!  It's about getting rocks off!  Go comment!
effervescible: (made me think [by someone else])
So all of you who've been in fandom a bit--what was your first ship? Why? What made you realize "OMG I am a Fan" with a capital F? If you've met internet buds offline, what was the exerience like for you? What are some of your favorite net-buddy get together moments?
effervescible: (wolf/meryl - sleeping with your ghost)
What a Mary Sue is, and more importantly IMHO, what she isn't.  Quite a good and interesting essay.

[livejournal.com profile] moderators_suck--new comm found via JF.  I will be very disappointed if I'm not reported there by the people I banninated.

A Little More Than Letters by our own [livejournal.com profile] rainjewel.  Yeah, this is old, but I figured I'd re-post the link to keep the fires of the OTF alight.  This is the fic that confirmed Wolfwood/Meryl really could be done well (and she did it so well).  Before I'd just suspected it.  And sweetie pie, if you think drawing attention to this fic is my way of encouraging you to do part II...you're right.
effervescible: (internet porn [drazzi])
Click for teh answers )


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