effervescible: (Default)
I'm still in Kyoto. And I just got laid off.
effervescible: (meryl - angst - timing is cruel)
I just found out the guy who said I was his best friend got married and didn't even fucking tell me about it. I'm too much with the brokenheartedness to be angry right now, so [livejournal.com profile] sarcasticval will be handling the rage for me.
effervescible: (the scientist - had to find you)
I called my dad earlier to ask him when this weekend he and Mom will come to help me move my crap home. He answered, and I knew immediately he didn't sound right. When he said he just wanted to let me know he loved me, I REALLY knew.

"Who died?" I asked.
"We had a car accident here last night. A student was killed. One was life-flighted, but it looks like he'll be okay."

Jesus, what is it about this time of year? I should add that aside from my grandparents and my dog, my hometown has also lost a teacher, a middle school student, and my dad's secretary's mother (though that was probably not of much concern to the town at large). And now this. Damn. I suppose this is why I want to go home for the summer, even facing the possibility of job crappiness, instead of taking some classes here. I want to be with my family, to heal a bit. This will be my last summer at home if all goes well after I graduate.

I never did write about my grandmother's funeral. It was all right. I was dreading it as I drove there, almost crying when I got to the funeral home (Dad's craptastic directions did not help) but things got much easier once I was with family, and just like last time, the funeral was easier. I also got to hear a really funny story at the wake involving my cousin, a baby monitor, and a near-moment between grandparents that no one wants to hear.

The bouquet of flowers on the casket was lovely. A pink rose, carnation, and some baby's breath are in a cup on my kitchen table, though they're probably well wilted by now. I knew Grandma and Grandpa were being buried next to each other, so I asked Mom exactly where Grandpa's grave. Apparently, as she and her four sisters sat by the casket, they were on top of him.

He would've thought that was funny as hell.

For such a somber entry, I'm doing fine. My first actual final is tomorrow. Chuck has told me that it's a good one, so that means I should bring lube to class. You can kind of see my floor now, which is an improvement from recent weeks. [livejournal.com profile] rashaka, I haven't forgotten your Cowboy Bebop--I just need to find the last CD, which is being stubborn and hiding from me. And we sent the first chapter of slutfic out for beta, so that is progress.

Baby steps. They're a good thing.

Odd day

Apr. 21st, 2004 12:27 am
effervescible: ([bed of lies] marking it down to learnin)
Well, today my ISP decided to boot us for hours. And my grandmother died. (This was not a surprise. She's...really not been with us for a while now, and we were all amazed that Grandpa died first. It sounds terrible to say, but it might be better this way. Now she can be with Grandpa and eat all the sundaes she wants. It hurts and it sucks but we're grieving for our loss more than hers and the grieving process has been going on for longer than since Grandpa's health started failing.)

Still, somehow, it was not the suckiest day ever. Not the best, but I'm okay.
effervescible: ([bed of lies] marking it down to learnin)
This post is a month late in coming, but I still wanted to write about it. Cut for length and depressing-ness )Please don't feel the need to respond to this post with sympathy. I just wanted to write it down, not to get attention from people, but because I want to remember. All the support you guys gave me when this stuff was happening was very much appreciated. I'm doing quite well now, after an emotionally shitty few weeks. Heck, I got to see three hours of LOTR-boy prettiness last night, and that's quite a mood booster. :D I'm all right.


Mar. 10th, 2004 12:26 pm
effervescible: (Default)
My grandfather died this morning. It was easy and he wasn't in any pain.
effervescible: (kogepan bite me)
effervescible: (Default)
JainaX: it's uncomfortably like 9/11 even if not quite on the same scale.
Dr Cristin: yeah...i feel very similar
Dr Cristin: something huge happening, feel so far away yet so close to it
effervescible: (pissed/scary)
I think I need to stop over-examining things.


Mar. 22nd, 2002 02:24 pm
effervescible: (pissed/scary)
My day fucking sucks.


Feb. 20th, 2002 12:55 am
effervescible: (vashangel)
Today sucked in many, many ways.

But Megan and some others (and a phone card) made it a little better.

effervescible: (vashangel)
We didn't get the Founders suite. Dammit. We can still get singles near each other in Anderson...but I'll miss the living room. It's not the same. Maybe the year after next.
effervescible: (sadme)
I suck.

When Eric came to fetch Josh and me, I thought he was going to ask Val if she wanted to come and he thought I had and she didn't get asked. Sigh. Next time, self, be explicit about the plans. Now I feel all shitty and stuff. It wasn't El Fun Grande that she missed or anything, but still. I should have made sure. Val, my love, I owe you a favor. ~_^ Whatever you want. And it is the weekend...


Nov. 12th, 2001 11:15 am
effervescible: (Default)
Can I go back to sleep, please?

Oh fuck

Sep. 11th, 2001 10:28 am
effervescible: (saturn)
Why is it that I start crying after I know my people near the attacks are okay?

This is so scary.


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